There are so many beautiful reassurances and wisdom that comes from nature.
As fall comes around, it gently reminds me of that sometimes, whether in mind, body or spirit, we can feel the death and decay of the pieces of self that we worked so hard on growing. Like the apple tree growing in my yard, I think about how even though the apples and the leaves on the tree cyclically grow and die, the tree itself keeps getting taller. Like me, the tree is experiencing the inevitable. The apples don't get bigger as the tree gets bigger. The leaves don't even seem to get bigger as the tree gets bigger. But as the tree grows, it creates more space for more leaves and more apples to grow, and even still... each year, they grow! And each year they die. Like the tree, our growth is inevitable. Whether intentional or nonintentional, there will always be parts of us that are growing each day. Likewise, in order for that new growth to happen parts of who we are, (our beliefs, our identities, our dreams, our goals, our friends, partners, careers, hobbies, etc) must die. My question is: What happens when we refuse to let go of the things that are required to be let go of in order to grow? Do we run the risk of not going through the discomfort and missing out on experiencing the new growth? Are we just preventing ourselves from accepting the inevitable? No matter how much the tree loves the apple it was able to grow, it will lose it because that is the natural order of this Terran experience. Do we actually have any control over this experience? If we did have control over it... would we really hold on to the past and miss out on what awaits? I certainly don't have all the answers but have many questions and the courage to explore them. With love, A
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Shamans are individuals who are believed to possess the ability to communicate with spirits, enter altered states of consciousness, and perform rituals and ceremonies that are intended to heal and bring about balance in the world. They are often regarded as wise and respected members of their communities, and their services are sought after by people seeking guidance, healing, and spiritual growth.
Having a shaman as part of a retreat or community can be a great addition for several reasons. Here are a few:
If this isn't you, you definitely know someone who lives in a state of chaos, drama, and misery.
Many of us wonder why people live like that and how long will they stay there. Let's break down why people would want to attach themselves to this mindset and lifestyle in the first place. Being unhappy and miserable is a way to get your unmet needs met. This is basically telling us that, sometimes being miserable pays off. We get sympathy and attention. We get community (misery loves company , right?) We get the things that we need without ever really having to ask for it. We get people who want to come and save us We get to have many of our needs met without ever having to be vulnerable. Yes, addiction to happiness can simply stem from a protective mechanism that says, I don't feel like my needs will be met, so if I live in misery... company will find me, and someone will make me feel wanted, loved, and accepted. We all know what it feels like to be rejected. It can be so painful. Whether is was actual rejection (kids not picking you to play at school) or perceived rejection (a parent leaving and passing away), it can be so hard to open ourselves back up to connection. This is why wearing the armor of misery can be empowering. The Armor of Misery says: "You can't make me anymore miserable than I already am." "I can't be hurt if I'm hurting all of the time. I can only hurt if I'm vulnerable." "No one will ever accept me for who I am, so I might as well stay kicked down." Most people have gotten so disconnected to their real reason of choosing this mindset, that they just live here sometimes enjoying the gifts (community, attention, needs being met, etc...) and wishing that they would actually experience happiness. If this is you, I want you to know that there are people on the extreme opposite of this as well. Always living in a perpetual state of happiness, that they never really get to feel how unhappy they are, and they get lost inside of that identity. What I'm really here is to talk about the addiction part of this. Happiness and unhappiness are neither good nor bad. They are experiences that we as humans have been blessed to have. They give each other deeper meaning. Happiness and unhappiness both are the source to wisdom and self-awareness. They are the keys to community consciousness and self. The danger of this comes in when you realize that you have sucked yourself so deeply into the cycle of unhappiness, that you can't escape it. Your words and actions still align with misery, while your soul is crying out to be saved. No different than an addict who continues to drink, smoke, eat, even though they know on the inside this isn't the life that they want anymore. Addiction to misery is a real thing. It's an entire identity. It's not impossible to overcome. There is space for you to bring BALANCE into your life. This doesn't mean a complete removal of sadness and pain. It means not taking the pain so seriously that you live your entire life from that place. Learning how to let the pain be your teacher rather than your master. If you identify with this or know someone who does. Seek support in finding tools that can help you overcome this way of living. Sign up with me for my ego and shadow work class to work on these processes with the support of me, your shamanic surgeron and sister in spirit.
Alesha and Anthony use a variety of traditional Shamanic tools, spoken word, sound, and specially designed music to assist the mind, body, and spirit into deeper states of meditation for the purpose of journeying.
Anthony Sterling is the founder of GeneOhm Sound & Wellness. He creates live music experiences using ancient and modern methods to generate an atmosphere of calm - allowing our minds to more easily access brainwave state frequencies associated with meditation, relaxation, and flow. He is a certified Therapeutic Sound Practitioner and Meditation Teacher. Using the techniques he has learned in his practices, he guides experiences focused on breathwork, visualization, attentive listening, sound, and music. You can check Anthony's website where he has a full video describing his medicine via sound. Feel free to contact him for collaborations, classes, and sessions.: GeneOhm Sound & Wellness Alesha shares her tools and practices in the YouTube video below! My Story
Death / Anger / Hatred / Acceptance / Purpose It all started with a nightmare that came true. At 9 my mother died from medical malpractice where I got to see this lively loving woman turn into a vegetable. I can still see her arms and toes hyper flexed into themselves and hear the breathing tube in her throat. I remember watching all the adults around me staying so strong and so I mocked my environment even though on the inside I was in complete shock and confusion. When she died, I became bitter, and hateful. I hated life I hated God, and I hated people, and I most of all I hated myself. All of the "sorry"s just became meaningless words that people just said because they didn’t understand. And my feelings became too big for me, and for those around me. When I tried to express that I hated life, my peers and my teachers immediately let me know that talking that was an invitation to being labeled “dangerous, and crazy”. So, I suffered in silence and I stayed obedient to what I knew I had to do which was “grow up”, handle my shit, and make sure I never spoke of it again. While my grades were fine and I was able to adapt to my environment and manage to be a “normal” person, behind closed doors by 10 I was writing suicide notes in my journal, by 14 I was self-mutilating. All of this time I was bullying myself and sometimes those around me. I would sneak cough syrup, and would plan my days to binge and purge. The anger of losing my mother needed a target and I was the endless and perfect victim. I became addicted to putting a mask on that looked like I had it all figured out and that I was going places, and then going home and privately self-destructing. It made me feel alive. It just made me feel anything outside of completely numb. By the time I was 21, with the help of an antidepressant, I was completely suicidal. My emotions were uncontrollable. I was crying nonstop, while driving, in class, at work. My brain kept looking for spots to drive off to die. And by 23, I was having multiple bouts of psychosis regularly, where I would have full on visions of killing myself. The only thing that kept me grounded was my daughter who was born almost 13 years to the day of my mother's passing. While I had completely lost myself to grief, to the anger, there was a whisper inside that kept saying, you can’t do that to her. You have to live. You have to survive this. And so, I started practicing inversions and doing yoga, I had 1 experience with LSD that gave me this crazy visualization of how precious life could be followed by 8 hours of crying. I started meditating, reading books, educating myself on life and spirituality, energy, and healing. I got into crystals, herbs, and reiki which led me into Massage Therapy and Yoga Teacher Training which led me to Shamanism. Most of all within each day of this 5-year unravelling, I got into “God”, The Universe, something that was bigger than me, than all of us that was looking out and loving me even when I didn’t want it to. And within that I hadn’t had a single suicidal thought. I had 0 desire to self-mutilate or self-harm. My battle with self-loathing was exchanged for self-doubt, which I’ll take because if 5 years can transform violent hatred into moments of doubt… I can’t even imagine what doubt will transform into. My goal as a Shaman is not to show you that healing it possible, it’s to walk alongside you as you show it to yourself. I’m only a supporting guide in your Hero’s Journey. My advice? Don’t wait. Don’t wait like I did to deal with the pain and the anger that comes with loss and life. Don’t wait until it eats you alive and before you know it, you're daydreaming about dying. Don’t until you lose sight of the gift and the really good parts about life. Don’t wait until. Choose to be vulnerable. Choose to seek out that love. CHOOSE TO HEAL Originally, my daughter was my anchor. Now? My vision. My Purpose. My Mother. My Daughter. My clients. Mother Earth. THE PURE understanding that it is an opportunity and a gift to LIVE is my anchor. Don’t wait. It’s okay to be angry, and it’s okay to let the anger go so that you can really see what’s happening within; pain. Loving you, Alesha If I'm being completely honest with you, I've worked with many teachers, healers, and coaches, and every single one has told me that I should be charging more. (And I will...)
We live in a world where "healer" can easily be mistaken for "woo woo". Let's be real, "woo woo" is worth about $20, maybe $30 max. The world of magic can be fun, entertaining, mystical and intriguing. It can be freakishly accurate, and also sometimes really disappointing. Stepping into that world can be a hit or miss depending on the person you are working with, and depending on how open you really are. A couple of dollars for a 50/50 chance of getting a result can be worth it. I assure you, what you will experience in my sessions are neither for entertainment nor "woo woo". These "I could go for some entertainment or fun." clients are not what I am looking to attract or be around. I don't do this as a side job. I don't do this for shits and giggles. I don't do this for a parlor trick to get some ooo's and aaa's. This is what I do as a professional. I breathe, eat, drink, sleep, sit, walk, talk, and listen for healing. When clients find me, they are usually in some sort of serious dilemma. We are talking about difficulties, hardships, turmoil, and pain. We are talking about people who are seriously suffering in mind, body, or spirit. We are talking about people who have been trying to find a way out, and haven't been able to. People who have:
These clients come and find sanctuary with me. Let me be clear, all of us are temples. All of us are vessels for healing, growth, divinity, and miracles, but there are too many humans walking this earth without a clue on how to get out of suffering. It has taken me YEARS to cultivate my gifts. It has taken me walking down dark paths, and using my own tools and gifts to claw my way out of pain and suffering. Let's get to the bullet points and summarize this for you. Why do I charge this amount? RESULTS The point is, I am not going to sit here and woo woo my way through an appointment. I am not going to sit with you and then allow you to walk away left feeling empty and unsatisfied. If you have a problem, and we are in alignment, I can guarantee you results. PERIOD. My PASSION is healing. This is what I think about and participate in 24/7. I study under true MASTERS of their own trade. I am cultivating my self-awareness 24/7. I am mastering my skillsets and gifts. I am making pure and right choices to keep my temple pure. (EVEN WHEN I MAY NOT WANT TO...) I am mastering harmony, and balance. I am mastering authenticity and TRUE service. I am not here to please you, and make you like me. I am here to make sure that you are getting the results you are searching for. This is what you are paying for... You are paying for the real deal. Now you can see why my teachers, and mentors all say I should be charging more. There is no doubt about it. The years of training, the years of studying, and the years of working with clients are all there. I've done the time. I've created the results. To end bluntly. You're paying for what you've been praying for... Loving and believing in you, Alesha Wow. Did anyone else experience some interesting things that past few nights?
After having some interesting conversations with some members of my soul group it seems that the full moon took many of on a trip! Here are some of the things we collectively experienced:
In the next post, I am going to talk about ascension symptoms, and how many of these experiences also happen to us as the Earth begins to ascend into it's new form. Yes, the Earth's magnetic and electrical wiring is changing and because we are here, we are forced to change with it. This happens on a cellular and spiritual level, but we will get more into that on the next post. We are all Spiritual Beings having a Human experience. Some just choose not to think about it. Some choose to ignore it or not 'believe' it. I don't blame you. The Spiritual journey is not for the faint of heart. It asks you to step outside of the box. It asks you to remove yourself from your left-trained brain and step into the right brain. It asks you to tune into something bigger than you. It asks you to give up who you've created, what you've been taught and step into who you truly be, and what I call, "The Sense of Knowing". We are all experiencing Gaia's transformation, and in order to stay here, we have to transform with her, whether by choice, or by force. This isn't a call to get on the journey. The call comes from within. This is just a gentle reminder that we are all connected. That those of us who aren't consciously aware of this are still experiencing these symptoms, but are lost in the dark in why or how. Be there for them. Remind them that they are okay, and not alone. Love them. Remind them to breathe. YOU CANNOT FORCE SOMEONE ONTO A JOURNEY. They are already on it. And all you can do is be LOVE, and stay on your own lane. For the newbies, inexperienced, unpracticed...
I know that you've been seeing a lot of posts about this Full Moon, and I'm sure some of us are excited to use it's power to manifest something really amazing and desired. As a Spiritual Coach and an Energy Worker, I am here to tell you the truth about spiritual and energetic practices. So, here it goes. If you haven't been running, would you sign up for a marathon? If you haven't practiced a song, would you go on America's Got Talent and belt out a song without any practice? If you desired to go to the school of your dreams, would you take their test without studying? Would you start a professional job without having any practice or education? Would you get your eyebrows waxed by someone with NO history of waxing eyebrows? We've all been there. Dying our hair, cutting our hair, dressing ourselves, being bold and trying new things without any practice. Sometimes it gets a little messy, but we learn from the experience. Sometimes... it just ends up messy. Magick, Energy, and Rituals are not different from any other activity of life. It NEEDS PRACTICE. And this Full Moon isn't one to play with. Like Dia de Los Muertos, Halloween is a celebration of the spirit realm, and is a day to allow the connection between the spiritual realm and the Earthly realm to come into sync. Collectively, we celebrate this (knowing this truth or not) and in this electric Universe that operates under the Law of Attraction and Magnetics we are calling upon the spiritual to join us. With the Full Moon in full effect, which is the portal to sending up your dreams and desires, PLUS it being on the day where the Spirits are connecting with us, we must be careful for what we are putting out. This doesn't mean, YES! I DIDN'T KNOW.. I DEFINITELY SHOULD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS! If you aren't practiced in focus work, if you haven't done your shadow work, if you haven't been preparing for the full power of what tomorrow brings. RESPECT THE UNIVERSAL TRUTH.. we are all connected. What you put out... YOU GET BACK! Are you manifesting out of being desperation? Are you manifesting out of desire? Are you manifesting out of hatred? Are you manifesting with a pure heart? Without shadow work, there is no telling what darkness lies within. Envy, Sloth, Greed, Wrath, Lust, Pride, or Gluttony? Are you operating under any these hiding underneath your wants and desires? Prepare to call upon these Spirits as they will be the ones you are summoning on this Halloween Blue Moon. Rest Easy friends, this doesn't mean that you can't participate in manifesting your dreams, but wait until the 1st of November which is number 1112020, which is also a powerful day without the access to the Spirit Portal! I also think that 1122020 is another great numerical day to ask for what you want. If you were really hoping to do something on Halloween Day, gratitude is the best attitude. Send a huge thanks up to the Divine Creator for all of the things in your life that you've gotten without asking for anything in return. NOTHING BUT LOVE... because what you put out, you get back. There is so much love for you. May you be protected and surrounded with Divine Loving Light, "My hands and feet have been tingling for, like a week."
"I don't know why, but my face feels numb." "My tongue feels 'weird'." "Can we reschedule out workout? I haven't been breathing well for a few days." "I don't know what's wrong with me!" "I don't feel right." "My whole body is itching." "I think it's a nerve thing." "I feel like someone is choking me right now." "My neck feels like it's bigger than what it is." "My nerves are shot." This was my dialog within my internal world for about a week. Finally, it all started spilling out of my in my conversations. (We talk about this in the 5WLC Program). Your internal world will react with the external world. There is no escaping it; they are separate, but one. I went to bed that night, and continually woke up GASPING for air. It was like all of a sudden I had developed some sort of sleep apnea. I woke up repeatedly all night not breathing. Spiritually speaking, this can be a sign of some sort of spiritual attack. Although I wouldn't put it past me as we near this Halloween Full Moon, the word 'apnea' kept coming to my mind. I looked it up, "Spiritual meaning of Sleep Apnea" and it came back basically saying, this is a way of your being to say that it is ready to give up; ready to take it's last breath. It didn't resonate completely, but I thought maybe I'm missing something. Look it's no secret, I've been in a place before my spiritual journey where I swam in the ocean of suicidal thoughts. That's not where I am. But if I would be honest with myself.. I have been feeling overwhelmed. People in my house have been sick for a couple of weeks. I have had some deaths in the family or near my family. I have had some shocking news about deployment in my family. I have had some news about custody changes. I have been adding new extra curricular activities for my daughter into my weekly schedule. I am building up a group coaching program. I am building a website. I am building a business. I am putting on weight and not understanding how it's not coming off. I have been dealing with a lot of pain in my right arm . I have been worried about my grandparents. I have been wanting TO GET OUT OF HERE... WHOA. PAUSE. After about 3 days of talking out loud about how my hands and feel are tingling and my face feels numb, I finally said it out loud. "MY NERVES ARE SHOT." I was heard. "Are you having an anxiety attack?" Hahaha... What?! NO! Wait, maybe? I did just say out loud that my nerves are shot.. Hmm... Google Search: Feeling like you are choking" Google results: GERD, ANXIETY. "Damn." My question for you all today is... DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE SYMPTOMS ARE? Anxiety is a nervous system - digestion - circulation - WHOLE BODY experience. It's interesting how it happens in little steps. This is what the steps looked like for me. Bad news. More Bad news. Shocking news. More Shocking News. Restless mind. Constipation. Chest tightness / shortness of breath. Tingling hands and feet at night. ITCHING!!! Weird sensation in tongue. Sleep apnea. Choking sensation. Your body will communicate with you. Listen. If you can, be with yourself, and allow yourself to experience it, you allow yourself the opportunity to problem solve. Surround yourself with people who HEAR YOU, and LISTEN to you so that you can hear the things maybe you aren't listening to inside of yourself. Here is the quiz I took on Google. In case you couldn't have guessed, I was 1 more tough homeschooling day away from a nervous breakdown. https://www.recoveryformula.com/quiz/start Eh, no shame here. I am really humbled by my humanity. It keeps me grounded. And it makes me a better healer, and coach. Times are hard these days for all of us, but I'm glad I have all of the tools and self awareness to be humbled by my time to dive into the darkness, and come out empowered and transformed. There is no guru or teacher who is perfect. We are just warriors of our own fight, who are willing and wanting to take a stand for ourselves and for you as we all experience Life on Earth together. Stay tuned for the recipe I follow to slow down the momentum of these bad days! If it's something you need now, schedule a 30 min session and in the notes mention a "Consultation" with me through my website. I would be happy to share some space with you in order to help you on your journey. https://www.recoveryformula.com/quiz/start |
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