"My hands and feet have been tingling for, like a week."
"I don't know why, but my face feels numb." "My tongue feels 'weird'." "Can we reschedule out workout? I haven't been breathing well for a few days." "I don't know what's wrong with me!" "I don't feel right." "My whole body is itching." "I think it's a nerve thing." "I feel like someone is choking me right now." "My neck feels like it's bigger than what it is." "My nerves are shot." This was my dialog within my internal world for about a week. Finally, it all started spilling out of my in my conversations. (We talk about this in the 5WLC Program). Your internal world will react with the external world. There is no escaping it; they are separate, but one. I went to bed that night, and continually woke up GASPING for air. It was like all of a sudden I had developed some sort of sleep apnea. I woke up repeatedly all night not breathing. Spiritually speaking, this can be a sign of some sort of spiritual attack. Although I wouldn't put it past me as we near this Halloween Full Moon, the word 'apnea' kept coming to my mind. I looked it up, "Spiritual meaning of Sleep Apnea" and it came back basically saying, this is a way of your being to say that it is ready to give up; ready to take it's last breath. It didn't resonate completely, but I thought maybe I'm missing something. Look it's no secret, I've been in a place before my spiritual journey where I swam in the ocean of suicidal thoughts. That's not where I am. But if I would be honest with myself.. I have been feeling overwhelmed. People in my house have been sick for a couple of weeks. I have had some deaths in the family or near my family. I have had some shocking news about deployment in my family. I have had some news about custody changes. I have been adding new extra curricular activities for my daughter into my weekly schedule. I am building up a group coaching program. I am building a website. I am building a business. I am putting on weight and not understanding how it's not coming off. I have been dealing with a lot of pain in my right arm . I have been worried about my grandparents. I have been wanting TO GET OUT OF HERE... WHOA. PAUSE. After about 3 days of talking out loud about how my hands and feel are tingling and my face feels numb, I finally said it out loud. "MY NERVES ARE SHOT." I was heard. "Are you having an anxiety attack?" Hahaha... What?! NO! Wait, maybe? I did just say out loud that my nerves are shot.. Hmm... Google Search: Feeling like you are choking" Google results: GERD, ANXIETY. "Damn." My question for you all today is... DO YOU KNOW WHAT THE SYMPTOMS ARE? Anxiety is a nervous system - digestion - circulation - WHOLE BODY experience. It's interesting how it happens in little steps. This is what the steps looked like for me. Bad news. More Bad news. Shocking news. More Shocking News. Restless mind. Constipation. Chest tightness / shortness of breath. Tingling hands and feet at night. ITCHING!!! Weird sensation in tongue. Sleep apnea. Choking sensation. Your body will communicate with you. Listen. If you can, be with yourself, and allow yourself to experience it, you allow yourself the opportunity to problem solve. Surround yourself with people who HEAR YOU, and LISTEN to you so that you can hear the things maybe you aren't listening to inside of yourself. Here is the quiz I took on Google. In case you couldn't have guessed, I was 1 more tough homeschooling day away from a nervous breakdown. https://www.recoveryformula.com/quiz/start Eh, no shame here. I am really humbled by my humanity. It keeps me grounded. And it makes me a better healer, and coach. Times are hard these days for all of us, but I'm glad I have all of the tools and self awareness to be humbled by my time to dive into the darkness, and come out empowered and transformed. There is no guru or teacher who is perfect. We are just warriors of our own fight, who are willing and wanting to take a stand for ourselves and for you as we all experience Life on Earth together. Stay tuned for the recipe I follow to slow down the momentum of these bad days! If it's something you need now, schedule a 30 min session and in the notes mention a "Consultation" with me through my website. I would be happy to share some space with you in order to help you on your journey. https://www.recoveryformula.com/quiz/start
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